If all of your life you have wanted to see,
and you have reached the place where you are thoroughly sick of not doing so,
strip everything down  --  make it simple;
abandon whatever philosophy or thinking of another that you have been
trying to use for the purpose, and give over all of your mental energy to
the unencumbered looking at what goes on in your own head:
that is where it all eventually comes to,
so save yourself as much of the interim run-around as possible, and go directly to
the gate of the final university, and graduate school  --   your own mind;
that is where all of this started,
and is the only place it can reach a satisfying conclusion.
You want to see what is really going on? --
all you need see is what is going on in your mind.

Here is the sort of self employed simplicity to facilitate seeing by the anxious:
consider this expedient schematic: you (men) have two separate categories of
desires: the instinctive, physical ones necessary for life:
(hunger, thirst, rest, [and sex for the species]),
and desires that (comparably speaking) come entirely from thought,
(every human activity, interest and goal you can think of not included in the first category).
So now consider even further: every goal you have ever had
that is something other than eating, sleeping, and screwing
comes from one small area of your body: the cortex of your brain;
not one other cell in your entire body has any interest-in or awareness-of
the aims uniquely arising there from.
Anyone whose waking hours are not totally spent seeking to feed themselves,
and family, must have something else to do --  mentally,
in that thought never takes a break or naps –
thus after the organism is fed, rested, with access to safe shelter,
and there are no present essential needs, the fulfilling of which requires
thought’s assistance,
thought has no instinctive goals or even areas of natural interest –
thought is then left (shall we say): to entertain itself:
thought has to come up with its own goals and interests,
and in that it has no innate physical ones such as hunger and thirst,
to put it quite simply, but not disingenuously:
thought must invent goals and make up areas of interest for itself  --

Outside your cerebral cortex, there is not one other single cell in your entire body
that has any interest in: religion, fame, wealth, reputation, politics,
or any other thing you can name that is not eating, sleeping, or sexing;
this is not a denouncement of thought’s, thought-only areas of interest and goals,
merely their accurate categorization.
Cells in your cortex can be interested in matters that interest the rest of your body  --  and indeed by instinctive force  --  will be when necessary,
but none of the other cells that make up the vast majority of you
do or can have any interest in  --   even knowledge of
the matters that originate strictly IN the cortex;
consequently does thought (when not automatically engaged in assisting
the rest of organism in a survival pertinent matter)
live in a totally self-contained and conjured world;
it lives in a place entirely of its own making --
a place in which the only things that “exist” are things which thought,
through its unique power of imagination, has placed there;
the only interests thought has in this world are interests which it has invented,
and the only goals it has in this realm are ones it made up  --   so:
any goal you have that is of the thought-only category can only be opposed by a
thought-only opposition;
no other cell in your body will in any manner offer opposition to any
thought-only goal you may have;
nothing about you, no organ, no system, no biological operation,
no cell any where in your entire body --  outside your cortex
cares whether you are a Christian, Hindu, or Italian
much less whether you are a “good” one or not
(same with fame, fortune, reputation, artistic & intellectual success, et al);
nothing but thought has the goal to in any way  –  be-a-better-person;
your liver & stomach & lungs know nothing about such a matter;
all of human’s various named goals relating to them becoming a better-person,
a more tolerant person; a more compassionate person;
a more enlightened person are all thought-only goals,
and as such --  if there is to be any opposition thereto –
                                          --  it must come from thought.

......you can take it from here, right?!.........and lock up when you leave.
 
 

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