July
11, 2001.
For
various purposes, humanity can be divided into as many factions as would
be seen by the eye of an enlightened fly,
but
one of the most revealing, relevant the interest here,
is
the categorizing of people into those who primarily live out doors,
and
those who live in.
Every
ordinary person lives in both,
and
spends the necessary time in each,
but
even casual observation will readily reveal each man’s preference for one:
you
were born programmed to be either a homebody, or a böulevärdier.
This
is easy enough to see regarding a man’s observable behavior,
but
at a more subtle and eloquent level, much more is going on than is
displayed
by a person’s posings & extroverted social swirlings.
Obviously,
some people enjoying being out in the ever changing company of others
while
some prefer to stay home in the familiar circumstances of family,
but
when this division is investigated -- inside of you --
in
its normally unnoted, non-physical manifestation,
what
you can see is the very foundation upon which man’s routine mental structure
& sense of a, self sit.
Just
as with the physical side of man,
the
thinking portion of each person’s
nervous-system-personality-&-temperament
has a social life,
and
via the genetic lottery is wired to seek their secondary pleasures either
out of doors -- away from their house with others,
or
in their own home -- just them & their kin,
in
this instance, kin being the thoughts they find in their head.
It
is understandable and easy to see that physically speaking,
people
have a social life that always involves other people –
--
that requires their physical presence,
(in
that sex is the driving force behind same),
but
what goes unnoted is the fact that mentally speaking,
all
routine people’s social life also requires other people --
in
this instance – other people’s thoughts.
Parents
commonly censure young children for always wanting to
go
out and play with their neighboring counterparts,
and
are told they should learn how to stay home and entertain themselves,
but
never is such advice proffered concerning the child’s mental life,
indeed,
exactly the opposite is done & considered proper:
people,
young & old alike, are encouraged to
go
out and play with others, (that is) -- go read
books,
go
play with other people’s thoughts.
At
the outset, this is necessary;
adam
did not have his own mental voice to deliver him thoughts
until
he first heard a word from the creator,
and
no one will begin to, think,
in the ordinary, verbally-based sense,
until they are first, (no matter how perfunctorily),
exposed
to already extant, extrinsic thought.
You
must be exposed to thought & language to ever think & talk,
and
once the thought-machine is operational in a man --
he
never looks back......or forward......or sideways,
thought
then just continually rolls in,
and
becomes as much a mechanically accepted process
as
does blood flowing through his veins.
In
ordinary heads,
in
ordinary neural veins,
the
thoughts that flow are desperate-for & dependent-on a social life;
an
ordinary man’s thoughts -- and, regardless of his education –
require
the presence of other people’s thoughts;
in
a routine person’s head, there can be no party without guests;
in
a routine person’s head there can be no mental life at all without
the constant presence of guests.
Mentally
speaking, an ordinary man -- if nothing else --
is
indeed a – social creature;
even
when physically sitting at home alone,
he
is, in his thoughts,
strolling
the intellectually fashionable boulevards of history,
debating
the meaningful mortal questions
with
both all the great minds, and the supreme idiots of the world.
Amidst
a crowd, an ordinary man knows he is physically, “having fun,”
and
mentally, likewise assume pedestrians;
awash
in vigorous wrangling over ideas --
even
when carried on in just his own mind --
an
everyday man is certain
he is having a ball:
cutting
down a thought he just read in the paper;
demolishing
a thought he just heard spoke on the radio,
and
showing-up as sheer foolishness, an older thought suddenly brought to mind
by the one he just heard.
Every
person’s mental programming comes with a thought that
says
such debate is the basis for increased understanding --
which
is true regarding physical matters in man’s primary reality,
but
this social dancing, sparring & fisticuffs concerning
the
strictly mental matters of his second reality produce
nothing
of value – indeed they produce nothing,
(a
thousand -- a billion times zero is still zero;
a
thought that has just, “Proven-the-existence-of-life-after-death”
also
just disproved that, Punk-killed-Disco).
Life
has wired ordinary men to think that thinking about
other
men’s thoughts is the proper exercise of thought;
why
this is expedient is too obvious to bother with again,
but
if you hope to see what is going on with,
“being-a-creature-alive-that-experiences-thought”
you
must make the almost impossible, minuscule effort necessary
to
pull your face back away from the glass against which
it
is pressed and staring through,
and
try to make your face -- face itself.
Forget
whether it is impossible or not -- it does not matter --
you
must try -- for by so relentlessly trying,
will
your present mental condition of total dependence on the completely useless,
and meaningless thoughts of other humans, (living, dead & imaginary),
become clear to you,
and
by this sudden clarity will the door of your at-home-cell
-- swing open --
and out you can step.
Even
though almost every part of your mental wiring & programming
is
set to tell you & itself that it is only by the examination-of, and
debate-with
the thoughts of other men that your ability to think clearly is realized,
and the ultimate understanding of life achieved,
every
sane, normal human being who is now, or ever has been, alive,
is
also programmed to be mentally governed by this thought,
and
for collective-man, it observably serves him well, (if minimally so),
but
if you are one of the few who were born with a
non
standard twist in the routine wiring schematic,
and
who perforce can find no mental surcease in creations coming from
routine ones,
you
must eventually see for yourself -- quite within yourself --
that
nothing whatever is accomplished by your thinking about thoughts that came
from other people, (nothing other than killing time),
and
what you can now undertake to profitably do is simple:
metaphorically:
restrict your mental social life to home;
stay
indoors, just with yourself -- but not with your face pressed up
against the two-way-street, glass windows -- squinting & staring
–
but
back away from what is clearly NOT your own original thoughts --
but
also away from what seems to BE your own mental self -- but
which
clearer eyes will soon show is not.
Amidst
the noisy debate always going on in your present, social-head,
there
is no real, individual, you
to be found;
the
fact that you have no individual mental self is covered up by
the
constant noise and activity.
Stop fencing with fools -- especially
those in your own thoughts --
and you’ll soon see the light.
J
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