June
6, 2001.
VOICES:
Part
3
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Everyone hears voices, and if
you identify them erroneously,
and listen to them seriously,
you feel constantly harried,
vexed & pressured.
The voices continually tell what
THEY
say you should be doing,
as opposed to what you may instinctively
be inclined to do;
and they press for their picture
of life to take preference over
the way life IS,
particularly regarding other people’s behavior & ideas,
(which are obviously the result
of them listening to bogus voices).
The pressure comes from you feeling
that you must make constant decisions in these matters:
whether to go ahead and do something
you wanted to do,
or yield to the voices’ prohibition
thereof;
whether to mentally accept some
situation as it is,
or obey the voices’ urgings
to criticize it,
and whether or not to heed their
prescription which says that
all ideas you hear are either
legitimate, and to be supported,
or else are spurious, and to
be denounced.
Everyone feels a pressure to
stay alive,
but it is not a negative sensation,
in that fulfilling all of your survival needs is fun, (eating, fucking,
sleeping);
people ordinarily healthy do
not feel physically harried by being alive, but all ordinary people
do
feel so -- somewhere else.
They feel under pressure in
a manner few try to understand,
(and not merely in the routinely
identified ephemeral examples of being late for work, or fretting over
an impending unpleasant task).
No, there is a life long, less
specific pressure that harries men,
and it plainly comes from: Hearing
the voices.
The criminally uncivilized do
not adequately hear the voices,
and they are extremely frightening
to those who do
in that they appear to live
their lives doing whatever strikes their fancy at the moment with no regards
for the consequences,
or other people’s feelings.
They are vilified ---
and they are objectified,
turned into pop culture heroes,
both fictionally & in real life.
Respectable & civilized,
voice-hearers
envy the freedom
the outlaw’s ways represents,
yet they do not try to emulate
it --
-- the power of the voices
is too strong in them --
so they use it as mental entertainment,
even whilst chafing under the
pressure.
It is not simply that ordinary
people secretly want to be
thieves & murderers,
but their instincts do
crave freedom from a pressure that
they do not comprehend.
(Note: the voices only denounce
things men naturally want to do;
a man with a properly de-pressured
head
would need nothing more said
about this than that.)
You waste your time to look for
external origins of
your voices’ particular injunctions;
they did not come from you growing
up catholic, jewish, atheist,
republican, poor, orphaned,
or anything else;
the voices that you and everyone
else hears come from life --
-- and from nowhere else.
There is not the tiniest scrap
of anything personal about the
voices you hear, or concerning
what they say -- although!
it certainly seems
otherwise -- because!
the voices SAY
that is.
It is not possible to make the
voices in you realize that
the life of the body in which
they operate
has had nothing whatever to
do with what they have to say;
if they could understand that
-- they already would,
and would indeed, be telling
you all of this
instead of you having to hear
it here.
From a mortal perspective, the
voices have no source,
any more than does the wind:
the voices are, just
there, (just like the wind),
and the pressure they exert
is, just there,
(again like the wind):
no one knows where they come
from,
and no one knows where any particular
one goes -- when it goes.
The overall purpose of the voices,
(exempting as always,
their radical contributions
to your physical survival),
is to create a pressure in you;
to harry you; to vex you;
to harass you --
to civilize you;
to turn you into an actor
-- a poseur -- a pretender.
Do
they do a job, or what?!
The voices accomplish their mission
also through making you always feel at least partially at odds with your
environment.
This is natural with all creatures
at the physical, instinctive level,
and is patently necessary for
survival,
but man is irritated by the
environment in a way experienced by
him alone.
To be alive is to be capable
of being irritated by physical conditions,
(withdrawing from fire, brambles,
dampness),
but via the voices, men are
irritated by non physical conditions;
they are vexed by words -- by ideas,
expressed by other men who are
merely following the directions of
the voices they hear.
The voices in you denounce half
or more of everything you hear & read which are products of the voices
in other people;
the voices pressure you to divide
all that you hear,
(which catches their attention),
into the true & acceptable,
and the fallacious & condemnable,
when they are neither --
and are both, (and this is not even to
mention the fact that what you
hear has no more substance,
nor significance than do the
voices themselves.)
The voices in each person pressures
them to constantly choose,
(actually it is a matter of
letting the voices choose for you),
between ideas that are valid
and those that are not,
and to make known your displeasure
with the latter:
doing so is part of any decent
cow’s responsibility.
(The voices people hear also
direct them to criticize other people’s
behavior, but this is so easily
seen for the transparent envy it be,
that no detailed note thereof
need be made.)
The initial pressure is to allow
the voices in you to have full rein over your mental domain, and total
control of your tongue & pen
to chastise life, and other
people, as they deem proper.
The ultimate manifestation and
personal experience of the pressure
is in the simple and obvious
fact that the voices you hear
do not have the same interests
as you,
at least theirs do not include
your primary one.
Now you may not be able to say
exactly what that primary one is -- but,
you know down to your marrow
in your bones that
the voices’ agenda does not INCLUDE
it.
The few are born with a secondarily-neural
wiring desire that is in fact, anathema to the voices;
as though the rest of the world
is born with, voices-matter,
and the few come equipped with,
voices-anti-matter.
The voices men hear, run their
lives -- the lives they live in their head.
This is the standard arrangement;
it is good enough for popes,
presidents, bums, C.E.O.s,
your parents, your peers, Nobel
prize winers,
the question is: Is
it good enough for you?
If not: start saying to your
self with every breath:
”Everybody
hears voices. Everybody hears voices.
Everybody hears voices -- so
what else is new?!”
J
A man even half way awake can tolerate no one else in his head but him
...........if that.
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